Grandfather: I just had to close my restaurant before I go here.
(The conversation was in Mandarin but I will translate it in English)
Me: (did not speak)
Grandfather: You do not have to hate her. It might be a misunderstanding.
Me: (did not speak)
Grandfather: Do not worry about what happened. Joseph and the other children understood it. We prepared for it because you said she's special.
Me: (stared) (Then I got my phone and started recording my grandpa's voice) (I like recording his words of wisdom, his messages saved to my records tend to inspire me during my down moments)
Grandfather: It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone. Imagine smiling after a slap in the face. Then think of doing it twenty-four hours a day.
Me: What about dad?
Grandfather: Your dad is a very tough person. He underwent so much pain before he achieved so much. Think of this as a challenge. Someone will come and love you for who you are. Pain is there because you are feeling love. At least you know that you still feel something inside (pointed at my chest).
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My thoughts now before I sleep:
Tears shed for another person are not a sign of weakness. They are a sign of a pure heart. Now I know, I could really love someone. I will treat what happened this afternoon as a lesson so I can stop being a little boy in many ways and I can be a better man. Now that I know that I have the capability to love like this, I would do it better. And by the time I receive a reciprocated love, I will do my best for it. This is what I need, love. And with my capacity to give it I know I will receive it too. I know that is what I deserve. For now, I would feel this pain and sleep with it. But tomorrow is a brandnew day to love, and be loved. Mr. Michael Wong is not really cold-hearted as people around used to say. I'll let the pain remain in my heart first. In time, this will heal.
Thank you yeye(Grandpa) for loving me this much. I dunno how I will survive this life without you and your words.